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the gay asian
Room hunting...I jumped in with both feet.. into this process. I cried so much at work on tuesday, I made several stall runs, seeking solice in the dimly lit nasty ladies 20th floor bathroom.. my family life... my father, I knew it was time. I got a clear sign universe! Thank you! I'm listening!
Going on an open call interview tomorrow.
I'm scared of everything but I do it. Somehow. Perhaps I give myself agida in the process but I do it. I force myself to do everything, and it gets easier...
I long to see D. and I hate that. I start feeling very needy sometimes, although I don't outwardly reach out because I think that's just lame. I should be pursued. I'm not the pursuer. He's just way cooler about it than I am. His apt. deal fell through so, I'm not moving in with him any time soon. Not sure that would be the best idea at this point given we are in an Esquire magazine proclaimed "long intimate party". Neither booty calls, nor officially going steady. We are floating on the boundaries, everything is nebulous. But I want more!! and when I get more I want less! and when I get less I want more!
I know nothing about anything.
10:06 p.m. - 2008-04-30
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